My Support System

I feel so grateful to have such a wonderful group of friends. I usually don't see myself as a closed person, as I feel I'm pretty open when it comes to sharing my feelings and emotions....but lately, when it came to real difficult situations, I started to see myself keeping to myself more. This is not a good thing for me. I noticed when I share my feelings and talk it out, it makes me feel so much better. It really feels nice to open up and get it all out. I felt hesitant to express my feelings to certain people because of what they would think of me. I was afraid they would see me as another one of those crazy hormonal preggers, and I didn't want that kind of attention. I should've known better to think that way, though. Whether they do or not, i have a great group of people in my inner circle that will stand by me and support me no matter what, and we can all laugh about it when it's all over.

The PUPPPs is one example of all this. Dealing with it was so difficult for me in the beginning. I did tell a couple of people when I started to get mild symptoms, before knowing what it was, but when it really hit me hard at the most severe time, I kept it to myself and I was an emotional wreck. Only Shawn saw me go through it at home, and I did not share it with even the closest friends. I felt embarrassed, depressed, and felt scarred. As I sat at home trying to figure out "why me" and crying over it, I decided to change it around and be open about it. I called a few of my friends and opened up about it. Then, I went and blogged about it. In just a matter of a few phone calls and a blog entry, I felt so much better. I cried and whined about it, but I got nothing but supportive words in return. This is what I call real friends and my support system. As more people found out about it by either word of mouth or reading my blog, I started to get pours of emails, IMs, and phone calls with nothing but kind words and advice. Even the simple "thinking of you" emails made me feel so much better. I want to thank each of you that have offered to come by, hang out, and even offered to bring me food! It was a difficult week but I feel so much better now overall. My skin looks a lot better and the itching episodes have lessened. I feel like I can go out now without feeling embarrassed and scarred. I actually feel almost back to normal again. My last days of pregnancy might not be as bad afterall. I only wish for a healthy baby at the end. Thanks for making it all better for me!